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....You Have Become The Enemy. You Are The Means To My Destruction....
....Dreaming That You're Perfect.....Then Waking Up Crying Tears....
Created on 2004-07-08 12:53:17 (#3739561), last updated 2004-09-19
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Basic Info| Name: | past_imperfect |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 02-11 |
| Location: | Gloucester, United Kingdom |
| Website: | http://www.geocities.com/hidden_from_the_world/sophiessite.html |
BioI don't know how it began.
I don't know why it began.
But a few years back, I started cutting myself. It wasn't really often back then, but now, I usually do at least once a week.
I can't stand looking in the mirror. What stares back at me, is what I hate.
It pisses me off that people don't believe how much you can really hate yourself. Always telling you that you're 'beautiful' 'skinny' or 'perfect'. I'm not. I'M NOT!
Now I'm fighting a battle with food. Sometimes, I could go days without eating. But other days, I don't know what overcomes me, but I stuff myself full of food. Which leads to me getting depressed. Which leads to me cutting myself.
I feel so happy when I'm empty. I don't have the guilt of knowing that there's something in my stomach.
I despartely want to be thin. And I'll do anything to get there. Anything.
I don't know why it began.
But a few years back, I started cutting myself. It wasn't really often back then, but now, I usually do at least once a week.
I can't stand looking in the mirror. What stares back at me, is what I hate.
It pisses me off that people don't believe how much you can really hate yourself. Always telling you that you're 'beautiful' 'skinny' or 'perfect'. I'm not. I'M NOT!
Now I'm fighting a battle with food. Sometimes, I could go days without eating. But other days, I don't know what overcomes me, but I stuff myself full of food. Which leads to me getting depressed. Which leads to me cutting myself.
I feel so happy when I'm empty. I don't have the guilt of knowing that there's something in my stomach.
I despartely want to be thin. And I'll do anything to get there. Anything.
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